Day 18: I wasn’t suppose to create this piece cause I was suppose to work on that painting I was feeling awful about. So if I post this lady, it’ll just be this reminder that I chickened out today. But the purpose of my #the100dayproject is to be honest with you guys. So here it is, I chickened out of doing something difficult today. 😕 . . . #cpt100day #fashionllustration #beautyportrait #watercolor Day 17: Isn’t she beautiful?! . . . #fashionillustration #beautyportrait #the100dayproject #cpt100day #watercolor #gouache These colors. Day 16: Creating is such a roller coaster! Earlier today, I was so excited with the progress I was making with this piece, but now I’m feeling all sorts of discouraged and I’m not sure why. I’ll be real with you all, I wanna throw her out. I’m embarrassed having to face a weakness. But there’s this whispering of a voice telling me to hold onto her and that I’ll be able to fix her. I’m reminded of what @lisacongdon said about how the creating process is shaped like a bell curve. You start with excitement only to find yourself in a rut, but when you keep going you come out on the other side, having survived the experience and even possibly, creating something amazing. I’m holding on those words. . . . #cpt100day #the100dayproject #watercolor #gouache #fashionart #wip Day 15: The case of the Monday’s is a real thing! I shouted for joy when I finished this piece. Probably almost cried. When days are tough, it’s difficult to feel like you are capable of anything good. Today was a victory! ✊🏽 Now excuse me while I go to bed early like an old person. Buh bye. 👋🏽 . . . #cpt100day #the100dayproject #beautyportrait #fashionillustration #watercolor #gouache Earth I love you! I especially loved being at the most southern tip of Africa looking out over the Indian (under the sea of clouds) and the Atlantic Oceans. Most breathtaking earth experience ever! #southafrica #capeofgoodhope #earthday Day 14: This face was fun to draw and painting with the purples, orange and blues! Swoon! Hope you had a lovely Sunday! 💕 . . . #cpt100day #the100dayproject #beautyportrait #fashionillustration #watercolor Day 13: I burnt out creatively pretty fast this week. In desperate need of an artist date, I watched I Feel Pretty and it may sound cheesy, but I actually related a lot to it. . Since starting #the100dayproject I’ve definitely gained confidence in my work and my voice as an artist. There’s something to be said for being willing to put yourself out there and letting people see you as you are. . Thank you @amyschumer for always sharing your voice! ❤️🙏🏽 . . . #cpt100day #fashionillustration #beautyportrait #watercolor Day 12: Friday mood...and no that’s not side-eye mood, that’s tryna stay awake in the middle of the afternoon mood. . I feel like I’ve never work so hard in my life like I have with #the100dayproject! I get excited for the weekend, but then I remember there’s no skipping during this project! 😩 All for the sake of creative growth, right?! . . . #cpt100day #fashionillustration #beauty #watercolor #portraitpainting Day 11: Busy busy day so just a WIP for #the100dayproject. . . . #cpt100day #wip #fashionillustration #fashionart #watercolor #painting #dior #diorcouture I’m working in my studio and I have all the windows open, letting spring float into my space. So inspired and I’m immensely grateful right now. . . . #fashionillustration #fashionart #beautyportrait #onthedesk #art #portraitpainting Day 10: I gave a lot of creative energy to my little boy today. When it came time to create for me, I barely had any creative juice left. I had just enough to do a little (a very 4x5.5 little) study. I might do more of them. . Although I’m tired and I’m in need of some me time, I’m quite proud that I stayed the creative course. Cause I’ll be real, my sofa and The Voice was calling my name! 😅 . . . #cpt100day #the100dayproject #fashionillustration #portraitillustration #beautyillustration Day 9: One of the fears I have as an freelance artist is that I’m not capable of finishing a project. When clients inquire about my work this doubt of not being able to deliver sets in and then I end up sabotaging myself. . I didn’t trust in my capability of putting my nose to the grinder and completing a painting in a timely manner. So today, I challenged myself to complete a painting, but I also told myself not to get lost in my work, to be flexible with what the day brings. . I babysat for a friend, I chatted with that friend for a nice hour, had a real lunch break, made an entree for my kid’s party at his pre-school that I completely forgot about, and *drum roll* I finished this beauty. . Yup, I’m feeling like super woman today! 💪🏽💃🏻 . Illustration inspired by photo from @heatherhixon for @darling magazine. Make up by @mnorth. Model @magdulenka. . . #cpt100day #the100dayproject #fashionportrait #fashionillustration #makeup #watercolor #gouache #darlingmagazine Day 8: This @dior beauty was a tricky one to work with. I stared at her for the longest time (and she stared back and won...hahaha) trying to figure out what was wrong with her. I kept making changes and was never satisfied. . I watched Jay-Z on And My Next Guest Needs No Introduction With David Letterman on @netflix. Jay-Z talked about how it took him a month to write “Forever Young” because he couldn’t get it right. He put the song out there and, although he’s still not satisfied with it, it became one of his most successful songs! . Seeking perfection can be a huge block to your creative progress. Just take the risk and put your work out there. You never know how people will respond to it. . . . #the100dayproject #cpt100day #fashionportrait #fashionillustration #painting #dior #watercolor #gouache Day 7: Let’s add some color to my #the100dayproject, shall we? . . . #cpt100day #inkdrawing #watercolor Day 6: No doubts today! Just this inspiring advice from @austinkleon on my mind! I have felt inadequate as an artist because I didn’t know who I was and what my voice was as an artist. I’m six days in now and just by doing these simple drawings, I’m learning so much about myself and gaining confidence to share my voice. . . . #the100dayproject #cpt100day #inkdrawings Day 5: I did eight drawings and immediately after finishing this one, I exclaimed, “that’s her!” as if I was picking out my inner critic from a line up. . Today was a rough day so I was unable to finish the piece I was so excited to share. It’s days like this that can so easily leave me feeling defeated. I was sure today would derail #the100dayproject. But I’m still here and I created. Nothing to be embarrassed about. . . . #cpt100day #illustration #inkdrawing Day 4: There’s a battle I fight with my inner critic. She’s always showing up when I have little victories or exciting upcoming projects, trying to hinder my joy and optimism. Telling me reasons I shouldn’t be so excited. . Today I told my husband I was excited about something I was working on. Sure enough, she was there immediately afterward, undermining my confidence, telling me to temper my enthusiasm. But this time I stopped her on the spot and chose to just be excited! And now I’m telling you, with no hesitation or reservation: I’m excited about a blog post and painting I’m working on and I can’t wait to share it with you tomorrow! . . . #the100dayproject #cpt100day #inkdrawing Day 3: Mother and artist are two titles I hold dear and do my best to honor. Yet at times it feels like I must choose: my art career or motherhood. But somehow I find that, when I prioritize my little boy, everything else falls into place. Then the roles seem to harmonize beautifully and I wonder why I thought there was a conflict at all! . . . #the100dayproject #cpt100day #fashionillustration #fashionillustrator #inkdrawing